realities of life like a nightmares

In last friday,my father just suddenlly died.What is the factor to cause my father died we also not very sure.The doctor just said is brain be wind because using ct scan also cannot check the problem.We all also cannot receive this kind of situation because just normal not very illness.My father got asma like me got genetik asma.Many people said is becase of problem of breathing and cause the brain and coma.At that time,my father really at critical situation because the heart stop pump the blood in 15 minit after that safe the life ,but sudenlly still continous stop the heart pump 2 time .The doctor said we all cannot doing anything already.However,i don have regret to saw my father last face because at that time I at temple.My autie bring me went to the temple to pray.However,when we at temple,I receive a call said my father cannot already i quickly went to general hospital kuala lumpur ICU to saw my father last face.My family and I cannot receive this kind of fate.I feel very sad and crying and suddenlly remember my childhood life with my father.At my childhood life,my father teach me many thing is about many games how to make aeroplane using paper ,playing a,e,i,o,u ,went to the lake we all call 't-lompat' and so on.....

feeling about the end of first sem

In last few month,i got many first time experience in my life sometimes is happy and sometimes not.I got many suffering experince more than happy experience.First i feel very suffering is my hostel leaking tank,at that time i feel very desperate because i only first year student and first sem why i must got this unhappy experience.Sometimes in weekend i stayed at hostel always dunno what kind of food can i eat.This kind of food are not delicious and make me suffering so sometimes i prefer ate maggie mee.Sometimes the water also not very clean at my old block i dinno how to drank it.Recently,don not why suddenly whole hostel don have water and only got 1 block have water to bath.I must went a long distance and bath.At that time, i very angry.I asked myself why my hostel alway like that and cannot be normal than other.This kind of experince is the one of the part......got so on.My happy experince is my coursemate are very takecare to me and theirs always help me because i am is a confuse students.My direct senior also help me to understanding the lesson and also takecare to me.I feel very happy at that moment and can cut down my sadness experience.I also got one teacher to help me understand the lesson.I am not very independent girl i alway need help from other,but i must try to independent.Sometimes i got problem also discuss with my coursemate.My all coursemate already become my friend already.Now,i think i become a little big mature but still want to attempt.I think the more experience i get can become more mature.